life is made up of danger and heartbreak

Now That She's Here (3310 words) by angelette
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. (TV)
Rating: Mature
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Sunil Bakshi/Jemma Simmons
Characters: Jemma Simmons, Sunil Bakshi
Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence
Summary:

She should have known that her going undercover at HYDRA would end up being a disaster.

It's funny that being sick could motivate me. I mean, I had always problems with putting aside my inner editor and just write, but now I think I kind of reevaluated everything in my life and though I'm still pretty depressed (but I'm so hoping I could start my treatment someday soon!), I kinda want to be positive and do productive things: which is writing.

I scrapped my Agents of SHIELD fic, but I figured out what was wrong with it: I started it before s2 and I have to rework a "few" scene, so now I'm outlining hard... and I get the feeling it will be much longer than expected. (But who am I kidding? I always write much longer stories than I want to.) The other thing is I haven't fangirled in a while, but I watched a few fanvids and yeah, I still like this ship I'm writing for, even if canon sunk it. By that I mean there aren't any scenes between Ward, Simmons and Fitz... but I'm still not giving up, and yes, I want to be accountable for it, so that's why I'm writing about in public. I need my cheerleaders. :D (And ha-ha, this fic is so long over due.)

And I've signed up for Ship Swap, and it seems the fic exchange gods love me, because my bad luck with recips* seems to have ended. I got someone who seems to be a lovely person and I already saved their letter to treat. :) I'm outlining fics for them already, but I need to rewatch the canons. I'm so nervous, I don't want to disappoint them and yes, I know this anxiety is what kills my muse, so positive thoughts!

* I don't always get the non-commenter/defaulters, but I had my fair share.

But the main point of this post, I need some writing resolutions! So here they are:

• to write that Agents of SHIELD threesome fic already. Possibly before SHIELD returns, but that would be a miracle, so I settle for April. (which means 6000 words per week?)
• to write a long-ish fic for the April CampNano - possibilities are: a threesome/foursome Agent Carter fic (Daniel/Jarvis/Jack/Peggy) or threesome Sleepy Hollow fic (Nick/Ichabod/Abbie)
• to write a long-ish fic for the July CampNano - possibilities are endless (Constantine, Arrow, OUAT?)
• to write a long-ish fic for NaNoWrimo
• to write my poor original novel... and find an editor.
• to write at least two treats for Ship Swap.
• how about that first sex scene I'm not running away from screaming?
• to write 100 k words, that should be enough of a challenge

I wanted to do an amazingly long rec list, but... but... I have only a few ships. So without further ado:


What can I say? It's perfect. :) It has both my ships and a hint of poly and while the first two chapter is lighthearted fun about how they got together, it delivers a gut punch at the end, which takes place after the finale. I just adored everything: it has my favorite tropes (training, I can never get enough of the training with awkward feelings and sexual tension trope) and it's very emotional. It has an open, ambiguous ending, but that's part of the reason why it's so good.

It's another angst-y FitzWard fic, and this is why I love rare ship fests, because let's be honest, the AoS fandom is filled with fluffy AUs which are totally not my cup of tea. So it was a refreshingly canon-compliant take on unresolved FitzWard feelings. It's an interesting read because the dual POV's and the two different kind of tone represents so well Fitz and Ward's differences. Lovely and heartbreaking.