life is made up of danger and heartbreak

So, uhm, I've just started (re-started, really) my Rare Pair Fest assignment, and it bit my muse in the ass. I have a fantastic urge to just write. I don't really remember when I've felt something like this. So yay! \o/

I realized it's okay that I don't get anywhere with my original projects, they are too vague and underdeveloped, especially my characters, and I won't rush it. I know a few of my narrative kinks I like and what I love in romance plot lines, but everything I try to stick together falls apart. I think I'm really rusty, it was four years ago since I finished a novel... And since then, I changed, not just me, but my likes/dislikes and my writing - hopefully for the better. So I think practicing with fanfic is a good way to go, so here are some writing resolutions again:

• I'm gonna try to write three one shots per month with the help of genprompt bingo.
• I'm working on one iZombie fic which is almost done and it's barely 1000 words, but I just stuck at the most important scene, so go me! I can write it, even if it's not something big and fancy.
• I'm gonna write all of my ideas for my new favorite ships -> Expect some Stitchers fanfic in the future. (As of now I started two fics of the never-ending list of ideas, god forbid, I do anything on a moderate level.)
• My Rare Pair Fest assignment is first priority, of course. I'm so loving it!
• And because of one lovely reader, I got inspired to continue my Sleepy Hollow longfic, so there's that. Maybe I'll sign up with it for the Id minibang, we'll see.
• I want to write some longfic for NaNoWriMo in November, as of now, it's probably gonna be some Stitchers fanfic, celebrating the renewal of the show, but we'll see what the new seasons and new shows inspire. I'm gonna watch a load of TV shows.

It will be really challenging but I hope it'll motivate my creative flow.

Word count: 1,628
Fandoms: iZombie (1)
Category: F/M (1)

Tornados	Violence	Rich and Poor	Confessions	Exhaustion
Glorious	Cowboy AU	Nicaragua	Smoke and Fog	Writing, Text and Quotes
Abduction and kidnapping	Crackfic	Wild Card	South America	Ship and Captain / Mount and Rider
A Blackmail Attempt	Luck	Home-cooking (Liv/Ravi - iZombie)	Shapeshifting	Dreams, Daydreams, Wishes
Fear / Terror	May Morning	Humour	The Hermit	Minorities / Characters of Colour / Women in Canon - Please be careful not to use offensive stereotypes

It's funny that being sick could motivate me. I mean, I had always problems with putting aside my inner editor and just write, but now I think I kind of reevaluated everything in my life and though I'm still pretty depressed (but I'm so hoping I could start my treatment someday soon!), I kinda want to be positive and do productive things: which is writing.

I scrapped my Agents of SHIELD fic, but I figured out what was wrong with it: I started it before s2 and I have to rework a "few" scene, so now I'm outlining hard... and I get the feeling it will be much longer than expected. (But who am I kidding? I always write much longer stories than I want to.) The other thing is I haven't fangirled in a while, but I watched a few fanvids and yeah, I still like this ship I'm writing for, even if canon sunk it. By that I mean there aren't any scenes between Ward, Simmons and Fitz... but I'm still not giving up, and yes, I want to be accountable for it, so that's why I'm writing about in public. I need my cheerleaders. :D (And ha-ha, this fic is so long over due.)

And I've signed up for Ship Swap, and it seems the fic exchange gods love me, because my bad luck with recips* seems to have ended. I got someone who seems to be a lovely person and I already saved their letter to treat. :) I'm outlining fics for them already, but I need to rewatch the canons. I'm so nervous, I don't want to disappoint them and yes, I know this anxiety is what kills my muse, so positive thoughts!

* I don't always get the non-commenter/defaulters, but I had my fair share.

But the main point of this post, I need some writing resolutions! So here they are:

• to write that Agents of SHIELD threesome fic already. Possibly before SHIELD returns, but that would be a miracle, so I settle for April. (which means 6000 words per week?)
• to write a long-ish fic for the April CampNano - possibilities are: a threesome/foursome Agent Carter fic (Daniel/Jarvis/Jack/Peggy) or threesome Sleepy Hollow fic (Nick/Ichabod/Abbie)
• to write a long-ish fic for the July CampNano - possibilities are endless (Constantine, Arrow, OUAT?)
• to write a long-ish fic for NaNoWrimo
• to write my poor original novel... and find an editor.
• to write at least two treats for Ship Swap.
• how about that first sex scene I'm not running away from screaming?
• to write 100 k words, that should be enough of a challenge